Monday, I am settling in here at CCC and think I might enjoy it here more than outside. It is not unlike camp with the group taking the place of activities like hiking and backpacking. I am now established as a formidable ping pong player, in the top 4 at least. Nor worries, no financial burdens, 3 meals, a bed, developing “friends”, an attitude of self-help here which I doubt prison will have, no fighting, a sex offenders group so no “ostracization”.
I dread when this is over and I am back in jail, then prison in Illinois. I like living with Jeannie when I am not with her, I hardly miss Heather at all. I must be a total jerk to say that, but I have not “invested” emotion in anyone so much since maybe Sharon Boothby, or perhaps Jane Luckey, no not Jane. I doubt I will or even can love ever again. So CCC is a good home.
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