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Journal: February 11, 2004
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Compassion                            Jail Time

Second day of group. Today some anger emerged. I did not show it, but felt it. The emphasis of victims and recognizing how we hurt our victim, angers me because there was no victim to my crime. Yet I received the same or stiffer sentences than people who actually had sex with younger girls or who raped women. I will be “encouraged” to admit I hurt my victim or get a poor discharge report (which I am nearly sure I did, added Aug 7, 2016). That makes me angry. Also, I am already losing confidence in Randy (the group leader, BA in some social science), perhaps unfairly. Walking later on the outside B-ball court I thought that I HATE this world. One of the “criminogenic” thought patterns we saw in group was “The world sucks”. Well, I have some hate of this world in my now.